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#I’m better
(live:2s)[(t8n: "fade-in-out")[a short story about white lies and self-delusion](stop:)]
(live:4s)[(t8n: "fade-in-out")[may or may not contain autobiographical elements](stop:)]
(live:6s)[(t8n: "fade-in-out")[tw: depression, mental illness, suicide, trauma](stop:)]
(live:8s)[(t8n: "fade-in-out")[ [[begin]] | [[credits]]](stop:)]=><=
(live:1s)[(t8n: "fade-in-out")[They’ve invited you over for dinner and you’re [[actually going this time->going]].](stop:)]==>
#I’m better
by Jeremy Lonien (<a href="https://twitter.com/Ludonaut">@Ludonaut</a>),
for <a href="http://itch.io/jam/twiny">Twiny Jam</a> while fighting off a cold,
with Twine 2 using Leon Arnott’s <a href="http://twine2.neocities.org/">Harlowe</a>.
[[go back->Title Screen]]=><=
(live:2s)[(t8n: "fade-in-out")[(text-style: "bold")[“How are you?”]](stop:)]
(live:4s)[(t8n: "fade-in-out")[They are going to ask you and](stop:)]
(live:6s)[(t8n: "fade-in-out")[you’re already dreading the question.](stop:)]
(live:8s)[(t8n: "fade-in-out")[You can deal with the awkward hugging](stop:)]
(live:10s)[(t8n: "fade-in-out")[or with putting up a fake smile.](stop:)]
(live:13s)[(t8n: "fade-in-out")[[[You became very good at this over the years->years]].](stop:)]=><=
(live:2s)[(t8n: "fade-in-out")[Has it really been //years// since you had any contact?](stop:)]
(live:4s)[(t8n: "fade-in-out")[You’re not very good at this.](stop:)]
(live:6s)[(t8n: "fade-in-out")[How are you, they are going to ask you.](stop:)]
(live:8s)[(t8n: "fade-in-out")[A perfectly innocent question.](stop:)]
(live:10s)[(t8n: "fade-in-out")[They don’t even think about it.](stop:)]
(live:13s)[(t8n: "fade-in-out")[[[It's like a ritual->ritual]].](stop:)]=><=
(live:2s)[(t8n: "fade-in-out")[Shake hands.](stop:)]
(live:4s)[(t8n: "fade-in-out")[Maybe hug.](stop:)]
(live:6s)[(t8n: "fade-in-out")[A kiss on the cheek.](stop:)]
(live:8s)[(t8n: "fade-in-out")[Or a hand on your shoulder.](stop:)]
(live:11s)[(t8n: "fade-in-out")[[[How have you been->been]].](stop:)]=><=
(set: $x to 1)(set: $t to 0)(live:2s)[(if: $x is 1)[(t8n: "fade-in-out")[(link: "“Oh, I’m much better, thank you.”")[(set: $x to $x + 1)(set: $t to time + 2000)You have spent some time in hospitals and mental institutions.](stop:)]]]
(live:20ms)[(if: $x is 2)[(if: time > $t)[(t8n: "fade-in-out")[(link: "“I’m better, I think.”")[(set: $x to $x + 1)(set: $t to time + 2000)You think back to those places, with their underpaid and overworked staff.](stop:)]]]]
(live:20ms)[(if: $x is 3)[(if: time > $t)[(t8n: "fade-in-out")[(link: "“I’m better.”")[(set: $x to $x + 1)(set: $t to time + 2000)Handing out medication like candy.](stop:)]]]]
(live:20ms)[(if: $x is 4)[(if: time > $t)[(t8n: "fade-in-out")[(link: "“I’m better.”")[(set: $x to $x + 1)(set: $t to time + 2000)You remember one person, one of your fellow (text-style:"strike")[inmates] patients](stop:)]]]]
(live:20ms)[(if: $x is 5)[(if: time > $t)[(t8n: "fade-in-out")[(link: "“I don’t know.”")[(set: $x to $x + 1)(set: $t to time + 2000)[[raising her voice->voice]].](stop:)]]]]=><=
(set: $x to 1)(set: $t to 0)(live:2s)[(if: $x is 1)[(t8n: "fade-in-out")[(link: "“I’m better.”")[(set: $x to $x + 1)(set: $t to time + 2000)Some time later you saw her creeping through the building](stop:)]]]
(live:20ms)[(if: $x is 2)[(if: time > $t)[(t8n: "fade-in-out")[(link: "“I’m better.”")[(set: $x to $x + 1)(set: $t to time + 2000)like a real-life zombie.](stop:)]]]]
(live:20ms)[(if: $x is 3)[(if: time > $t)[(t8n: "fade-in-out")[(link: "“I’m better.”")[(set: $x to $x + 1)(set: $t to time + 2000)The nurses gave that person so many drugs she couldn’t even remember her name](stop:)]]]]
(live:20ms)[(if: $x is 4)[(if: time > $t)[(t8n: "fade-in-out")[(link: "“I’m better.”")[(set: $x to $x + 1)(set: $t to time + 2000)or tell where she was.](stop:)]]]]
(live:20ms)[(if: $x is 5)[(if: time > $t)[(t8n: "fade-in-out")[(link: "“I’m better.”")[(set: $x to $x + 1)(set: $t to time + 2000)How ironic, you thought.](stop:)]]]]
(live:20ms)[(if: $x is 6)[(if: time > $t)[(t8n: "fade-in-out")[(link: "“I’m fine.”")[(set: $x to $x + 1)(set: $t to time + 2000)[[How depressing, those places->places]].](stop:)]]]]=><=
(set: $x to 1)(live:2s)[(if: $x is 1)[(t8n: "fade-in-out")[(link: "“I’m better.”")[(set: $x to $x + 1)FIRST LINE HERE](stop:)]]]
(live:2s)[(if: $x is 2)[(t8n: "fade-in-out")[(link: "“I’m better.”")[(set: $x to $x + 1)NEXT LINE HERE](stop:)]]]
(live:2s)[(if: $x is 3)[(t8n: "fade-in-out")[(link: "“I’m better.”")[(set: $x to $x + 1)NEXT LINE HERE](stop:)]]]
(live:2s)[(if: $x is 4)[(t8n: "fade-in-out")[(link: "“I’m better.”")[(set: $x to $x + 1)NEXT LINE HERE](stop:)]]]
(live:2s)[(if: $x is 5)[(t8n: "fade-in-out")[(link: "“I’m better.”")[(set: $x to $x + 1)NEXT LINE HERE](stop:)]]]
(live:2s)[(if: $x is 6)[(t8n: "fade-in-out")[(link: "“CHANGE THIS”")[(set: $x to $x + 1)NEXT LINE HERE](stop:)]]]
copypaste the above for new passages and just replace the lines. todo: test if on click transition is possible for extra smoothness. nested fade-in-out maybe?
[[test]]
“I’m better.”on click set waiter to time + delay
if time > waiter
do stuff
(set: $x to 1)
(set: $t to 0)
(live:2s)[(if: $x is 1)[(t8n: "fade-in-out")[(link: "“I’m better.”")[(set: $x to $x + 1)(set: $t to time + 1000)FIRST LINE HERE](stop:)]]]
(live:100ms)[(if: $x is 2)[(if: time > $t)[(t8n: "fade-in-out")[(link: "“I’m better.”")[(set: $x to $x + 1)(set: $t to time + 1000)NEXT LINE HERE](stop:)]]]]
(live:100ms)[(if: $x is 3)[(if: time > $t)[(t8n: "fade-in-out")[(link: "“I’m better.”")[(set: $x to $x + 1)(set: $t to time + 1000)NEXT LINE HERE](stop:)]]]]
(live:100ms)[(if: $x is 4)[(if: time > $t)[(t8n: "fade-in-out")[(link: "“I’m better.”")[(set: $x to $x + 1)(set: $t to time + 1000)NEXT LINE HERE](stop:)]]]]
(live:100ms)[(if: $x is 5)[(if: time > $t)[(t8n: "fade-in-out")[(link: "“I’m better.”")[(set: $x to $x + 1)(set: $t to time + 1000)NEXT LINE HERE](stop:)]]]]
(live:100ms)[(if: $x is 6)[(if: time > $t)[(t8n: "fade-in-out")[(link: "“CHANGE THIS”")[(set: $x to $x + 1)(set: $t to time + 1000)NEXT LINE HERE](stop:)]]]](live:2s)[(t8n: "fade-in-out")[a story about white lies and self-delusion](stop:)]=><=
(set: $x to 1)(set: $t to 0)(live:2s)[(if: $x is 1)[(t8n: "fade-in-out")[(link: "“I’m better.”")[(set: $x to $x + 1)(set: $t to time + 2000)They gave you anti-depressants and you took them.](stop:)]]]
(live:20ms)[(if: $x is 2)[(if: time > $t)[(t8n: "fade-in-out")[(link: "“I’m better.”")[(set: $x to $x + 1)(set: $t to time + 2000)You have dealt with the side-effects.](stop:)]]]]
(live:20ms)[(if: $x is 3)[(if: time > $t)[(t8n: "fade-in-out")[(link: "“I’m better.”")[(set: $x to $x + 1)(set: $t to time + 2000)Remember when you went cold turkey on that SNRI?](stop:)]]]]
(live:20ms)[(if: $x is 4)[(if: time > $t)[(t8n: "fade-in-out")[(link: "“I’m better.”")[(set: $x to $x + 1)(set: $t to time + 2000)Every little head movement caused what can only be described as](stop:)]]]]
(live:20ms)[(if: $x is 5)[(if: time > $t)[(t8n: "fade-in-out")[(link: "“I’m better.”")[(set: $x to $x + 1)(set: $t to time + 2000)(text-style: "rumble")[(text-style: "shudder")[Brain Zaps]]](stop:)]]]]
(live:20ms)[(if: $x is 6)[(if: time > $t)[(t8n: "fade-in-out")[(link: "“I’m worse.”")[(set: $x to $x + 1)(set: $t to time + 2000)[[It was hell->hell]].](stop:)]]]]=><=
(set: $x to 1)(set: $t to 0)(live:2s)[(if: $x is 1)[(t8n: "fade-in-out")[(link: "“I’m better.”")[(set: $x to $x + 1)(set: $t to time + 2000)You think of your friend who died.](stop:)]]]
(live:20ms)[(if: $x is 2)[(if: time > $t)[(t8n: "fade-in-out")[(link: "“I’m better.”")[(set: $x to $x + 1)(set: $t to time + 2000)He killed himself](stop:)]]]]
(live:20ms)[(if: $x is 3)[(if: time > $t)[(t8n: "fade-in-out")[(link: "“I’m better.”")[(set: $x to $x + 1)(set: $t to time + 2000)by train.](stop:)]]]]
(live:20ms)[(if: $x is 4)[(if: time > $t)[(t8n: "fade-in-out")[(link: "“I’m better.”")[(set: $x to $x + 1)(set: $t to time + 2000)You later found out that he was also hospitalized](stop:)]]]]
(live:20ms)[(if: $x is 5)[(if: time > $t)[(t8n: "fade-in-out")[(link: "“I’m a fraud.”")[(set: $x to $x + 1)(set: $t to time + 2000)[[and on the same meds as you were->you were]].](stop:)]]]]=><=
(set: $x to 1)(set: $t to 0)(live:2s)[(if: $x is 1)[(t8n: "fade-in-out")[(link: "“I’m better.”")[(set: $x to $x + 1)(set: $t to time + 2000)You still don't have an answer that you like.](stop:)]]]
(live:20ms)[(if: $x is 2)[(if: time > $t)[(t8n: "fade-in-out")[(link: "“I’m fine.”")[(set: $x to $x + 1)(set: $t to time + 2000)So you lie to yourself](stop:)]]]]
(live:20ms)[(if: $x is 3)[(if: time > $t)[(t8n: "fade-in-out")[(link: "“I am not fine.”")[(set: $x to $x + 1)(set: $t to time + 2000)and others.](stop:)]]]]
(live:20ms)[(if: $x is 4)[(if: time > $t)[(t8n: "fade-in-out")[(link: "“I am garbage.”")[(set: $x to $x + 1)(set: $t to time + 2000)You think of it as shorthand,](stop:)]]]]
(live:20ms)[(if: $x is 5)[(if: time > $t)[(t8n: "fade-in-out")[(link: "“I am sick.”")[(set: $x to $x + 1)(set: $t to time + 2000)to avoid having to explain yourself.](stop:)]]]]
(live:20ms)[(if: $x is 6)[(if: time > $t)[(t8n: "fade-in-out")[(link: "“I am unacceptable.”")[(set: $x to $x + 1)(set: $t to time + 2000)Or tell a story](stop:)]]]]
(live:20ms)[(if: $x is 7)[(if: time > $t)[(t8n: "fade-in-out")[(link: "“I am depressed.”")[(set: $x to $x + 1)(set: $t to time + 6000)that nobody wants to (text-style: "italic")[hear].](stop:)]]]]
(live:20ms)[(if: $x is 8)[(if: time > $t)[(t8n: "fade-in-out")[THE END(stop:)]]]]
(live:20ms)[(if: $x is 8)[(if: time > $t + 2000ms)[(t8n: "fade-in-out")[ [[credits]] | [[restart->Title Screen]](stop:)]]]]